dear journal
before I write something, I wanna sing:
dygta
2008
4THEBEST
Indah saat denganmu
Cinta yang terbaik
Sepanjang hidupku
Kini hanyalah mimpi
Menatap dirimu kembali disini
Bersamaku lagi
Dengarlah kasih...
Kumerindukanmu...
Masih untukmu
Kusimpan cintaku
Walau kau tlah lupakan aku
Tak ada yang mampu menggantikan mu
Masih untukmu
Seluruh rinduku
Walau semua takkan kembali
Biarku mencintai dalam hati......
today, I felt so blue...
I just can crying like a little baby... cause of my accademic score, just a little going better than before, I fell have a big mistake with both of my parent...
Because of the broken heart three years ago, I was going mad and start accademic worstly...
So, when I try to follow and continue to studying here, I need to work hard,
But, ovbiously work hard isn't enough, I need to work very very hard...
Each and every when I want went to my university in a city (Banjarbaru) beside my city (Banjarmasin), Each an every when I want leave my house, my Mom always stand in front of the door, to see my defature... She always pray for me... Give me the best... Always patient with me...
And what can I do for her and dad??? Still null...
I don't know why, my accademic is very terrible...
I was an intelegent student when I still in SHC...
And now???
The reason why I sing the song above is because I just not moving on yet from the previous my lovely one...
Now, I really need someone beside me...
to give me motivasion... to give me support... to give me reasons, why I shouldn't give up......
I have twitter acount, But... Still there's no mention....
I have facebook, But... There's no Timeline post from others....
I have a mobile, still there's no significant Message....
I have E-mail, also no significant....
I have catfiz messenger, No notification....
It's mean I have nothing... I have no friends...
Sometime I think... All of my friends is fake....
I'm alone...
The only thing I have is only family...
I'm so sorry mom and dad...