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today, yesterday & tomorrow... I guess it will be same... same like previously... nothing in previously... nothing in my heart... no one... no one want this "broken"... no one want to cure my illness... no one want to summoning this dead heart... like the zombie... it has nothing inside... it has no soul... it has no love... its only have emptiness... emptiness because of afraid to fall in love again... even I have meet someone beautiful... even when I have a nice friend... even no one can't understand what I am writing about... it just a journal... journal to tell what I feel about... about how long I was alone... so lon

Previous day is the first time I meet with TOEFL Test. The test is not to easy, and it's come more not easier when a pretty class mate sit in a chair in front of me... I don't know why, she looks like my previous lovely one... In my deepest heart want to know her more, about her live, her collage, and anything about her. But I still afraid with the change of broken heart... but I hope some day I will ripe enough as an adult man.... and ready to have love again... and about my last short semester, hahaha it's become better, my Calculus 2 from E to A my Calculus 3 from D to B+ and my basic introduction of mathematics changes from D to B

dear journal before I write something, I wanna sing: dygta 2008 4THEBEST Indah saat denganmu Cinta yang terbaik Sepanjang hidupku Kini hanyalah mimpi Menatap dirimu kembali disini Bersamaku lagi Dengarlah kasih... Kumerindukanmu... Masih untukmu Kusimpan cintaku Walau kau tlah lupakan aku Tak ada yang mampu menggantikan mu Masih untukmu Seluruh rinduku Walau semua takkan kembali Biarku mencintai dalam hati...... today, I felt so blue... I just can crying like a little baby... cause of my accademic score, just a little going better than before, I fell have a big mistake with both of my parent... Because of the broken hea